LaLa – Page 7 – Blah LaLa

facing the forces that shaped me

I am supposed to be at the coast, right?
That is where I think you want me to be.
(or somewhere else)…
And my parents believe that I should be here.
So, going to stay with them would be like a strange schism of sorts.… Read the rest

quiet day

it feels so quiet without Astro in my world.

And I am feeling ashamed.

Maybe I should turn my back.
The grief associated with that action runs deep – but that is to be expected, i suppose.

It is nice to have a day when i don’t feel torn.… Read the rest

school

What about school?

I want to go back to school this year, perhaps.

Studying what?! For what purpose. I know these are decisions I need to make, but the electronic noise is so confusing today.

This feels like no way to live.… Read the rest

soul shadows

I guess it feels like there are all these loose threads.

And I have been engaging in ways that are not based in physical reality.

So I have no real information about which direction to turn.

And these relationships are not even the most important thing in my world.… Read the rest

so stuck right now

yes. . . This *is bullshit.

I am slowly but surely sliding into depression. And I don’t know how to rebuild my world.

I feel like I need help and you are (mostly) so far away.… Read the rest

lalila [3]

except that the \\\ promise of sleep once in bed is fraught with…danger, i guess. Some kind of psychological distress.

blahhhhhhhhhhh

31/1/2026 – 2:27 AM – ‘thank feck that is over!’… Read the rest

soooooo sleepy

Wowwww, , , have I ever been this exhausted/sleepy?

I can’t keep my eyes open on any endeavour.

GoodnighT!!! ((sleep tight))… Read the rest

Author: LaLa (page 7)