Category: process

not comfortable in my ‘now’

Time passes so easily.
Then one day I wake up and feel very underwhelmed looking back over my life.

They are right of course, all there is is now.
The adventures that could have been.

If we don’t act, feelings and situations might change.… Read the rest

a missing piece

There is also a rather large pink elephant in the room.

I am not going to name it right now, because it isn’t my style.

But I am noticing it, and it doesn’t feel all that healthy if I am honest!… Read the rest

the ice

It might have been nice to go back to the coast for Mother’s Day.
The idea provides the tiniest modicum of relief from some kind of disembodied waste, probably orchestrated by bots for all I know.

As it is I have an appointment at the hospital tomorrow for something my panic merchant doctor wants to get checked out.… Read the rest

wintry and quiet

For the first time since moving to Melbourne, the wintry weather bothered me today.
There is something about feeling so sick, so crappy, so sad;
And then stepping out into that .

There is some dwelling in my private world right now, perhaps.… Read the rest

the funk

It feels like these opportunities for connection become active at the last minute. Which doesn’t make me feel in the least bit good.

I guess maybe I am never going to feel ready, so perhaps I should just get on with it.… Read the rest

this is not working

Something has to give.
I am caught between two worlds. . . quite literally, , , and I am not going anywhere until it is resolved.

I was leading that dance, and the partner I was in that part of the world with didn’t feel comfortable with it.… Read the rest