I think it is true – it is better to be ‘moody’ than ‘hyper’.
Even if it took a good while to come back to base.
Maybe even if I never find my spirit under this rock.
Hopefully I can mend some of these impacts.… Read the rest
Category: psychotic barney mika rap
isolated any which way
Splats.
There is something sobering about a situation where it simultaneously feels like I have made a terrible mistake and ‘it is all in my head’.
So it feels like the world is about to fall apart, it is my fault and yet at the same time I am completely foolish, and unable to share my fears with another living soul.… Read the rest
broken and expected to show up
To up and travel might be a lonelier kind of life.
Lonelier than nurturing the roots of my friendship here.
Or somewhere.
I am feeling like there is someone missing from my life.
And it feels so weird that I should keep writing, when no one gets in touch.… Read the rest
real life high
Something has lifted overnight.
And now, I want a ‘real life high’. I want to do something in my world that will lift the roof off my mood.
Because I am back to baseline, perhaps.
A morning coffee is a little bit of that.… Read the rest
Songs of another time :-)
Right you are.
It was too much.
I needed to ‘stick to my fruit toast’. HAHA.
Well it really is a beautiful day!… Read the rest
buy whyyyy
I am thinking of the reasons that 2026 has started in such a messy way in my world (not to mention more generally).
At one point I remembered the cake that my mother had bought me for my 40th birthday, which ended up going into the bin.… Read the rest
soul pain
A sickness to the stomach, so vile.
Borne from the realisation that she can’t switch it off.
Can’t ‘refuse to go back there’.
It is a bitter loneliness to walk some uncharted path,
With ‘friends’ who refuse to speak to her.… Read the rest