It feels like these opportunities for connection become active at the last minute. Which doesn’t make me feel in the least bit good.
I guess maybe I am never going to feel ready, so perhaps I should just get on with it.
Sorry not to be happy about it. It doesn’t feel right to me to connect to Turtle right now. Not with everything that has muddied my world for the past six weeks or so.
Not to mention the fact that it is my relationship with Turtle who has made life oh so messy and hurtful because of the disloyalty.
I am in such a funk right now that a (working) holiday feels like the last thing on my mind.
I am not quite sure what to say. I should be honest. I know that. . .