Category: blah

I need a hug,,, and there is no one here.

I feel sad, and it only serves to accentuate the absence of your presence in any concrete way.

Maybe I need to get off this ride.

It is a strong feeling of hopelessness.… Read the rest

What to write about when everything I could say feels too intimate for people who show me nothing of theirs?

I will give myself the time it takes to drink a cup of matcha gazing out at the blustery, wintry weather, to try to find one thing I feel comfortable sharing.… Read the rest

I am not going to lie… I am getting close to the end of my patience.
The power dynamic is so unbalanced.
And, it doesn’t feel good anymore. Hasn’t for a while.

Mouse said something tonight that gave me a tiny burst of energy.… Read the rest

I am starting to come good. . .

And the reason why I am not heading up to the coast this weekend is because my Dad is coming down here for a family commitment.

It feels like something is unravelling, and that makes sense to me.… Read the rest

I am so tired.

And since increasing my medication peri is kicking my butt.

It was you who has strung me along all this time without getting in touch.

Now, I am at a particularly low ebb. . . and you throw that concept into the mix.… Read the rest

I don’t really sleep these days.

And expression feels difficult.

All this time. All these words that mean so little – Now that I am here and you are not.

Waiting around is just code for letting life and opportunity slip by.… Read the rest

I am not going to lie – I feel like utter turd right now.

Crap, crap, crap.

And it is true that it is more tempting to not post this – to just up and go. . .

I am not sure what to do, and every word is nauseating.… Read the rest