Personal blog
This. .. . *antsy spider emoji (view out my dining room window) is bothering me a LOT today.
First, I don’t want anything in it.
haha *in FRONT of it. Or I want a beanbag. . . first things first.
https://www.ikea.com/au/en/p/friheten-corner-sofa-bed-with-storage-skiftebo-dark-grey-s09216755/#content… Read the rest
i woke up at 3:30 AM this morning. Shocked to awakening by the thought of someone I have let down.
3:30 AM
And now I can’t keep my etes ope,,, night night ((x))… Read the rest
Writing doesn’t always ‘take you there’.
Writing is sometimes cringe.
Then, we are invited to regret backpedalling too!… Read the rest
If I wasn’t listening to music with rapt attention would I be listening to someone telling a story?
The whole attachment situation is confusing, so I may simply refrain from comment.
Or just say – it is not exactly productive!… Read the rest
Every moment closer to sleep feels like heaven.… Read the rest
Maybe this intense visceral rejection of blogging/life’s burrs will set me up for a happier life in its second half.
Maybe that is one of the benefits of peri – cutting through the stuff that doesn’t serve us.
Because it is not much of a connection/plan/situation if I am honest.… Read the rest
it feels so quiet without Astro in my world.
And I am feeling ashamed.
Maybe I should turn my back.
The grief associated with that action runs deep – but that is to be expected, i suppose.
It is nice to have a day when i don’t feel torn.… Read the rest
What about school?
I want to go back to school this year, perhaps.
Studying what?! For what purpose. I know these are decisions I need to make, but the electronic noise is so confusing today.
This feels like no way to live.… Read the rest
I guess it feels like there are all these loose threads.
And I have been engaging in ways that are not based in physical reality.
So I have no real information about which direction to turn.
And these relationships are not even the most important thing in my world.… Read the rest
How old am I going to be before DeLulu is someone I can call my friend?
It WAS strange back on the coast. Like I could have bumped into him. And maybe because for once I know this person in the flesh, that would have been a NICE really nice thing.… Read the rest