Dear goodness…I am so grateful that I will have my first appointment with a sexual assault counsellor next week. The therapy was initiated due to a previous act of violence towards me, but I am hoping that my counsellor will be well-versed in relationship trauma and trauma bonds because I am noticing that I am spiralling down and down every day and feel worse every time I go through the toxic cycle with the person who I am doing this with.… Read the rest
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The rewarding nature of potential
The thing about doing support work is the intoxicating potential of possibilities for people in my care. As someone who has a particular talent for seeing what could be possible, I find it very rewarding to stand back on my mountain, watch someone climb theirs, and see possible paths to a more meaningful and purposeful life.… Read the rest
Winnicott transitional object in adult life
I find it very interesting that often when a particular long-term love interest finds its way back into my life I start reaching for my toy rabbit to cuddle. It is such an intuitive response and I am interested in exploring where it comes from psychologically.… Read the rest
Something funny
In my defence, haha.
Instagram has been feeding me such wonderful supportive posts lately, seemingly based on the pain I have been feeling. But there is nothing better than comedy for healing, am I right?
A sea breeze for the spirit
There is something so healing about the smell of the salt water and the warmth of the sunshine on my skin. The wonderful sea breeze blows away all my pain. And this combination of all my senses together makes me feel like I can put myself back together again.… Read the rest
Momento mori – when life gets real
The other thing that I have been thinking of in terms of psychology lately, is the idea of memento mori. I have heard a few great thinkers say that it is important to ponder on the inevitability of one’s own death every single day.… Read the rest
The capacity to roar – further reflections on this communication connection
It is so strange to reflect on what this relatively new internet communication connection is doing to my psychology. Today I am noticing that I am actually becoming angry if I perceive that someone is treating me like crap. Or if I am engaging in behaviour that is in some way disempowering to myself.… Read the rest
Follow-up journal entry 18th of September
For those who aren’t already aware, my attempt at writing about the broader impact of these types of digital relationships and communication on society is here. I am not going to lie, it was a big stretch to write the first draft of this post.… Read the rest
Are bloggers narcissists?
The next question that comes to my mind in the intervening hours is: ‘Is blogging making me narcissistic’? I am very ashamed to say this out loud. It doesn’t represent the person that I want to be in the world. However, I guess sometimes some space can lead to a clearer perspective, and what I have noticed today is that perhaps I am a little more self-absorbed and less empathetic than I was before this chapter of blogging began.… Read the rest
A fly in the ointment – real-life
Have you ever considered the way that social media (or any form of social interaction) on the interweb impacts your real-world social life? I Googled ‘social media is making us antisocial’ (or a near variant) when I got home tonight. Something awful is happening to me and to my brain lately.… Read the rest