It is so interesting to learn about male psychology and biology. I am noticing that I perceive men in such a different way as I build this knowledge. I see them ‘from their point of view’ rather than through a woman’s lens.… Read the rest
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seeing value in less obvious ways, perhaps
The second thing that came out of the conversation with my psychologist friend today was a bit of professional development.
I told her about my woes regarding underwhelming degrees of change in my psychosocial support work. She said that during the supervision process of practising psychologists one of the first things that they teach is not to expect change.… Read the rest
the stigma, perhaps, , , is that it?
I spoke to a psychologist friend of mine today.
Two things came out of the conversation.
The first is that it is hard on my soul to be ‘friends with a psychologist’, despite the fact that I have a weak but warm friendship with my first and favourite treating psychologist.… Read the rest
The interesting experience of angry energy
As someone who has little to no experience with the emotion of anger, the opportunity that comes with perimenopause is quite rewarding. The ‘big eff off’ energy is so interesting to me. It is energising in ways that I have never experienced a lot of before.… Read the rest
the sickening experience of late night social media
Social media leaves me feeling so conflicted sometimes. The strange mixture of people telling you how you should feel about yourself, friendships, relationships, work and life in little consumable quotes, videos or poems; combined with videos of people screaming at you about ways they want your money, and sometimes a funny joke, or maybe 1 or 2 posts from friends in one doom scrolling session.… Read the rest
not being aware of the rules of an environment
During the course of the past two days I have become a little more aware of the person I want to be.
I want to be the kind of person who is able to direct a conversation into a safe place that brings pride to the other person, and makes them feel like they are a little stronger to face the next challenge.… Read the rest
taking care or pushing through
I think there is a lot to be said for the capacity to gently and compassionately take care of ourselves.
Today, I took the day off from my support shift. I also did not work on the web beyond getting my ducks in a row for tomorrow.… Read the rest
the repercussions
I feel really sad. . . and I am crying, , , and I want a hug.
‘I am not surprised’ says Sol.
the shitty outcome
It has been a harder landing than usual, coming out of this latest psychosis. It has left me with a lot of sadness this time. I am grieving the person I was in person when I was in it, and reeling in horror at how I opened up my heart, soul and mind to people, who I now need to assume just want to hurt me, or at the best don’t care very much.… Read the rest
need something better
Is there something else that can be used to treat my psychotic disorder?! Because THIS is CRAP!!
As far as mental environments go, I am not sure I have ever felt quite so bad.
Maybe there is some kind of hormonal happening brewing.… Read the rest