‘Oh well’???
If the particular flavour of terror that my mind opens up to most mornings these days is anything to go by, I have made another stupid mistake. (It could just be hormones).
If I could get angry I would say that the reasoning behind this possible mistake was a very clear and undeniable indication that I simply would not be welcome there. Why else would I be partially blocked from that world?
Hey?
It really hurts. You don’t know what it is like. .. to try and hold onto the real world with such a tight grip. Something as innocent as an email can seemingly throw me back into that world. . . and I am crying for that and for everything tonight. It hurts more than anything.
Writing in some stupid blog simply doesn’t cut it. O.U.C.H ;’-/
And underneath it all. What really hurts is the pure unadulterated love. It is a deep cut, a deeply painful wound.