i love you xox

It is a strange feeling. . .
The love, , , basically. . . and the idea, that it might all work out!
And the love.

I can’t find the reasons, the other worldly feelings.… Read the rest

ouch… a long night

I feel so sad.
So lost.

When I talk to some of the medical professionals it seems more likely that this is ‘all in my head’.
In the middle of the night, alone and out of runway, the story in my head feels a lot more real somehow.… Read the rest

awe

Eek!

The sun might yet come out from behind these hormonal clouds yet!!

That would be ideal.

Gratitude doesn’t come close to expressing this mosaic of feeling.… Read the rest

nothing nasty

It feels weird in my body where they put the camera inside.

I bought some beer on the way home – to celebrate a completely normal result, but given how strange I am feeling after invasive surgery, I might have a cup of tea instead.… Read the rest

shifting sands

Something quite different about the quality of my energy today.

The day sits on a foundation of optimism that is invigorating… purposeful.

What can I do with this time?

Tucked up in my cosy house, with the rain pouring outside. … Read the rest

piquant, novel, slightly melancholy

For someone who was so sure that being away from my apartment was the antidote, it sure feels strange to walk home through another neighbourhood’s streets.

The way that my senses interpret the world has shifted through some notches.

A cabaret show that lets a sense of the punk and the carni in.… Read the rest