99 luftballoons – Nena

Bonne Nuit . . . I feel softly sad in my deepest of hearts tonight. It is bittersweet. . . But my concentration is blurry. . . or fuzzy around the edges. . . i suppose I have just never felt quite so EXCITED for seeing someone.… Read the rest

haha good times

There is nothing like it!
The only thing that would match this energy is . . . **connection** (I think)!!
I am tonguing for another beer, but I am going to put a lid on that craving.
How could it seem like (in some moments), like life is going to $hit, and then in others, , , like.… Read the rest

the lid

I am in an unusual mood where anything too evocative emotionally or in a sensory sense feels like it is overstimulating.

The antidote is classical and ambient music and a warm shower I think!

Something changes when I have a value adding product to sell.… Read the rest

silence can be refreshing

for once I want to be in silence.
every song that I put on is making me feel uncomfortable.
maybe my nervous system is shot today.

I am not looking forward to this night because I don’t think, given the state of a few critical relationships, that I am going to sleep.… Read the rest

a bit dangerous!!

The sun came out today, and I have a thirst that only beer could quench.
It is tempting, because it is happy hour – and, , , I am worried that once I start with a beer who knows where I will end up, given the mood that I am in!!… Read the rest