Today I walked through a vibrant part of my city that I haven’t been to for a while. The trip home brought something alive in me. It made me fall in love with my city all over again. … Read the rest
Category: mood (page 3)
cbf
I could go a cigarette.
Looking for some kind of rushhhhh.
When nothing feels good.
Waiting it out.… Read the rest
the desire to abscond
Maybe I have been feeling like I need to escape because of something that is happening with the moon and the stars.
I have certainly felt for quite a while now that I don’t ‘belong’ in Melbourne right now.
And I am not entirely sure ‘why’.… Read the rest
Ouchies – not an ounce of effort
I am sorry!!
I didn’t even TRY to plan a date.
I feel terrible now.
On my bus out of here.
And not in contact with you.
Ouch!
That is going to hurt for a good few.
S… Read the rest
music and writing for my soul
All that she could feel inside of her was. . .
Well, dear Lala, , , what IS it?
The feeling inside?
It is fear, mixed with disgust, mixed with intense sadness, , , perhaps. . . or is that shame?… Read the rest
nauseous grind
A weird energy,
That makes me want to keep the doors to my soul closed for a few.
At least until the energy of the evening shifts,
Into some other kind of mood.… Read the rest
how to regulate right now??
I am not going to lie. . . My nerves are finally shot. All it took was for a couple more stressful security conscious emails to come through, after a full week of this stuff, and I am officially dysregulated.
And I am not sure how to soothe these nerves.… Read the rest
and then
I guess I can’t definitively say that ‘this’ is a safe sapce. . . that has been yet to be determined, I suppose.
Safe enough for me RIGHT IN THIS MOMENT…… Read the rest
not again!! – – – appropriate spaces to process **stuff**
AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGHhh, , , the stress, , , my goodness.
I went to Facebook to VENT, which is obviously NEVER a good idea.
No sooner had the words come out of my mouth than the phone calls started.
‘Are you okay?’ You sound so STRESSED….… Read the rest
The interesting experience of angry energy
As someone who has little to no experience with the emotion of anger, the opportunity that comes with perimenopause is quite rewarding. The ‘big eff off’ energy is so interesting to me. It is energising in ways that I have never experienced a lot of before.… Read the rest