Blah LaLa (page 2)

the funk

It feels like these opportunities for connection become active at the last minute. Which doesn’t make me feel in the least bit good.

I guess maybe I am never going to feel ready, so perhaps I should just get on with it.… Read the rest

noise

I think it may have been someone else who was messing with my compass today. . .

The noise, and the electronic chocolate, it had me come unstuck.

Before this era, I spent so long in the grips of it.

Neglecting a true friend.… Read the rest

this is not working

Something has to give.
I am caught between two worlds. . . quite literally, , , and I am not going anywhere until it is resolved.

I was leading that dance, and the partner I was in that part of the world with didn’t feel comfortable with it.… Read the rest

Hovering

I am weakened again now.
And stuck between two worlds. With ten minutes to get on a train that I don’t want to get on.
I might stay here for a night.
I need to work out what I am doing in my business.… Read the rest

Stuffed up??!!

I am not excited. And I feel bad about the fact that I am on my way back to the coast.

90% chance of rain tomorrow and missing a gig tonight.

I finally got on the train and it feels all wrong.… Read the rest

buy whyyyy

I am thinking of the reasons that 2026 has started in such a messy way in my world (not to mention more generally).

At one point I remembered the cake that my mother had bought me for my 40th birthday, which ended up going into the bin.… Read the rest

what is inside

Blah, blah, blah…

the comedown is one of the trickiest parts. especially when it feels like so much has been squandered.

strange, how my illness lifts on his last day. .. there is more than one reason for that. . .… Read the rest