I feel so much better after an afternoon nap. And the wool has fallen from my eyes. I think I need to start dating in the real world so that I can find someone who actually wants to be in my life and my world.… Read the rest
Category: relationships
On the topic of good byes
The fact is that neither Mouse or Astro are showing up in my life. And I don’t believe it would be in my best interests to be exclusive with either of them without some kind of concrete level of commitment.
one thing is true.… Read the rest
Sadness today
The other major fault line is your partner and kids.
it still hurts when I think of it.
you intimated that you were sorry at one point and I soldiered on.
you are intimate with her, and then you hit me up.… Read the rest
Music for Mouse
the truth is that if that day (I thought) was your birthday I did consider what I could put in a playlist for Mouse, however, it was just too painful to contemplate.
it is hard to talk today, however I need to communicate the fact that I am planning to leave on some level.… Read the rest
love – l, o, v, e
I am beyond exhausted, but that isn’t going to keep the lights on!!
Hunger gnaws at my door.
I know nothing.
Except for this truth.
The solid, vulnerable, passionate truth.… Read the rest
3:33
Mouse’s semi-absence has created a mixture of emotions as notable events often do, I suppose.
The first impression was a sense of quiet, a stillness that feels quite welcome. I feel like their absence lets my eyes focus on the exit sign.… Read the rest
radio silence
I am not sure what I have done.
It was not exactly real I suppose, in any case.… Read the rest
these days have finally nearly passed
There is something so solid and comforting about the unfolding of reality sometimes.
I probably won’t sleep very well tonight.
But every day over the past few weeks I have become progressively less invested in the idea that I exist within some kind of expectation.… Read the rest
a little less invested
Estrogen is an interesting beast.
This morning I realised that I feel a little jealous.
It suddenly seemed like a waste of effort to invest in relationships that are so obviously side projects from your main relationship.
Although I am talking to a few people right now, I am not sure that I am a fan of non-monogamy.… Read the rest
assumptions, assumptions
I kind of thought that in that kind of situation it would just happen naturally.
That touch would be enough.
I am not so sure that is the case, or else – why isn’t it happening anyway?
I know I am not Robinson Crusoe.… Read the rest