Am I ever going to feel better? Or is this life now?… Read the rest
(page 13)
midnight snacks, hehe
thinking of maybe a bite of a muffin with some butter and some honey.
Just like a little possum up a tree in the darkness of the bush.… Read the rest
cbf
I could go a cigarette.
Looking for some kind of rushhhhh.
When nothing feels good.
Waiting it out.… Read the rest
practicality speaking
Maybe this intense visceral rejection of blogging/life’s burrs will set me up for a happier life in its second half.
Maybe that is one of the benefits of peri – cutting through the stuff that doesn’t serve us.
Because it is not much of a connection/plan/situation if I am honest.… Read the rest
wrong
What hell.
I feel like I should be on the coast.
And I am stuck here in this rut.
If my dream last night was anything to go by, then I am entering a new phase in my life.
And it feels bad.… Read the rest
those cuts are not equal
I could catch the train up on Saturday.
10 hours, or hundreds of dollars for the plane, is a long way to come without at least knowing we will catch up.
Can we make a plan?… Read the rest
climbing this stumbling block
Downloading this moment in time,
So that I can get the motivation to work, work, work.
Not sure that it is going to happen. I need someone to hold my hand, apparently, , , lol… Read the rest
grinding irritable
Irritability to the max.
And it is all my fault.
There is nothing to be gained by complaining.
It just drives the tone of life down.
Even if the substance of it is true.
Niggling aggravations are so magnified in this time of my life.… Read the rest
for people
If only I could carve out a little nook for mutual nurturance on this rainy Monday morning.
A little place on the web, or in the real world, that felt like a warm hug, or sinking into a brightly coloured bean bag for support.… Read the rest
no help at hand
Soooooooooooooooo,
I feel too nauseous to eat and too listless to write.
I should eat.
A piece of tofu.
I should write.
Just to maybe say that I have nothing medical to save me in the short term.
I am going to have to ride this out.… Read the rest