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maybe maybe

I do think that it might be a particularly good idea.

Even if my neurology is effed up.

O.u.c.h… excitement.

I am hoping you will tell me what you think.… Read the rest

a peak at sunshine

I want to say it is a spiffing idea.

I want to say ‘I would love to come and visit’. Especially when there is something so nice happening.

And I am feeling pretty average.

Conversation is not easy right now.

It sucks beyond every measure.… Read the rest

escapee hehe

lolololol,

you make me laugh, , , hehe, , ,

It is a good question, , , what the heck am I talking about?

What is this? Some kind of holiday!? Haha. .. I am still recovering, I think. . .… Read the rest

not jumping up and down about it!!

I am not getting a sense of a big push of support for this escapist plan.

It was a full moon last night (I think), and I barely slept.

Now, I am considering coming back for a week. . . to look see some.… Read the rest

I am not going to lie.
I am still drawn to the coast this year.
There is quite a bit happening up there.
And my moon and stars are talking about a different community, might be able to get out from under this family business sticky ick if I am there.… Read the rest

the desire to abscond

Maybe I have been feeling like I need to escape because of something that is happening with the moon and the stars.

I have certainly felt for quite a while now that I don’t ‘belong’ in Melbourne right now.

And I am not entirely sure ‘why’.… Read the rest

slowly killing me

Would you like to know what is wrong with me?

(Apart from the obvious issues arising from my mental illness).

It is this house.

It is so wrong for me.

Sometimes, when I am in it I feel like I need to detonate myself like a bomb.… Read the rest

broken and expected to show up

To up and travel might be a lonelier kind of life.
Lonelier than nurturing the roots of my friendship here.
Or somewhere.

I am feeling like there is someone missing from my life.
And it feels so weird that I should keep writing, when no one gets in touch.… Read the rest

a break from my favourites

I still don’t feel like I belong in my neighbourhood this year.

Feel like I gotsta get out and explore the world.

Can’t spend this year revisiting old favourites in this city.

Just gotta stand up and make it happen – no matter what it takes!… Read the rest

real life high

Something has lifted overnight.

And now, I want a ‘real life high’. I want to do something in my world that will lift the roof off my mood.

Because I am back to baseline, perhaps.

A morning coffee is a little bit of that.… Read the rest

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