Personal blog
Stuff this!!
It is one of those rare occasions when I get a glimpse of freedom. Except it is just another prison cell somewhere else.
Turtle has up and gone. It feels like an opportunity to let the whole ship slide down the street and out to sea.… Read the rest
Making the same mistake. Over and over again.
The mistake is putting my feelings into words, and articulating them.
Most other people move through their feelings without committing them to paper.
I am looking for a new way to let my feelings move through me.… Read the rest
And my reply??
One morning, not so long ago an interesting post showed up in my feed. It was a post about ageism, beauty, body image, technology and our young people.
Here is the post: https://www.instagram.com/reel/C3HD2cRPZpx/?igsh=OGoxbzA0b2liNjMy
I found it to be quite disturbing.… Read the rest
My body image ruminations make me want to find comfort and solace in the LGBTQIA community. This community knows more than anyone else about what it means to fight for dignity in a sometimes cruel and bigoted world.
Their rainbow flags and messages of PRIDE show such strength against such overwhelming adversity.… Read the rest
Dear goodness…I am so grateful that I will have my first appointment with a sexual assault counsellor next week. The therapy was initiated due to a previous act of violence towards me, but I am hoping that my counsellor will be well-versed in relationship trauma and trauma bonds because I am noticing that I am spiralling down and down every day and feel worse every time I go through the toxic cycle with the person who I am doing this with.… Read the rest
The thing about doing support work is the intoxicating potential of possibilities for people in my care. As someone who has a particular talent for seeing what could be possible, I find it very rewarding to stand back on my mountain, watch someone climb theirs, and see possible paths to a more meaningful and purposeful life.… Read the rest
I find it very interesting that often when a particular long-term love interest finds its way back into my life I start reaching for my toy rabbit to cuddle. It is such an intuitive response and I am interested in exploring where it comes from psychologically.… Read the rest
In my defence, haha.
Instagram has been feeding me such wonderful supportive posts lately, seemingly based on the pain I have been feeling. But there is nothing better than comedy for healing, am I right?
There is something so healing about the smell of the salt water and the warmth of the sunshine on my skin. The wonderful sea breeze blows away all my pain. And this combination of all my senses together makes me feel like I can put myself back together again.… Read the rest
The other thing that I have been thinking of in terms of psychology lately, is the idea of memento mori. I have heard a few great thinkers say that it is important to ponder on the inevitability of one’s own death every single day.… Read the rest