I am making the final decisions for colours in my new kitchen, and I am doing it with my gut, hehe.
My body tells me what feels right and wrong based on different textures and colours.
It is a strange, but lovely experience.… Read the rest
(page 20)
dating advice from datebrazen
The advice is that if you are carrying the conversation on your own, then it should be a ‘bless and release’.
If they don’t ask you any questions, then it is a ‘bless and release’.
And if you aren’t curious, then it is a ‘bless and release’.… Read the rest
what is good for me
I feel like getting out for a walk would be so good for me, but I feel so weak.
Maybe this is one of those situations where I should FORCE myself to get up and out. It will probably be good.… Read the rest
linger
I feel sad. I am yearning for someone to love. But I want someone who wants to connect.
This online communication is very inspiring, but it has been going on so long, without connecting.
I think it will probably always be this way, and I will always be a byte of information through the ether.… Read the rest
thorns in my recovery
I know that receiving a delivery of flowers is supposed to cheer me up.
How lucky I am to have a friend who cares!
They just make me feel bad though – guilty.
I can’t enjoy them, because my soul is so bleak today, that it can’t let love in.… Read the rest
coffee dates – back to it
too tired to write
Soooooo sleepy….
It also feels like I have been tensing all my muscles, or holding my breath, and recently I had cause to breathe outt, or relaz a little, but it just feels like my energy levels have dropped again, and I am back at square one.… Read the rest
a lifetime of regrets
I feel so sad because I never grew a human baby in my body. . . It is a huge wave of grief that pours over my soul. . . I feel so sad. . .… Read the rest
how to regulate right now??
I am not going to lie. . . My nerves are finally shot. All it took was for a couple more stressful security conscious emails to come through, after a full week of this stuff, and I am officially dysregulated.
And I am not sure how to soothe these nerves.… Read the rest
relationships and mental illness
It has only been two (or three) days since I reinstated the 0.5 mg of Ozempic, and I am starting to come good.
I know that this is socially difficult, but if my friends can accept that I just need a bit of space at this time, then maybe nothing will break.… Read the rest