Personal blog
I basically have a week of getting tiny snippets of sleep through the night, to catch up on now.
Given the depth of the sleep pressure, after just a tiny repayment of the debt, I get the sense that I am headed for some very deep sleep in these coming days,
It has been challenging being so teary, quiet and frightened, during these past couple of days since I reinstated the 0.5 mg dose of Ozempic, but I suppose it may be a small price to pay for the cognitive benefits of this drug.… Read the rest
ooooch, , , , , ooooooff, (I don’t feel so good).
Rising my dose to 0.5 mg of ozempic has left me feeling a bit. . . c.r.a.p (if you know it1!!!)
I felt like I could sleep in this morning (and that is a bad sign).… Read the rest
The fresh air outside was so invigorating today.
Nature has a way of nourishing my soul.
I need to take a break.
I need to go offline for a while.
Or else, I think I will say more things that I regret.… Read the rest
Oh wow!! Hehe, , , I just listened to an audio recording that I made in the middle of the night. . . It was so funny to hear. It is so funny how we can get so delirious in sleep.… Read the rest
Trigger warning: SA and upsetting themes
I feel frightened today. There are some malicious people out there in the world.
This morning I watched a reel about a young woman who had been sexually assaulted by a number of men in a variety of settings in her car.… Read the rest
Drats!
I think I am going to UBER over to the movies tonight. It is an extra expense, but my nervous system is so shot. I don’t want to drive, or catch PT.
I did some Vinyasa yoga, which felt nice to move the energy around my body, but I am so wrecked now.… Read the rest
I guess I can’t definitively say that ‘this’ is a safe sapce. . . that has been yet to be determined, I suppose.
Safe enough for me RIGHT IN THIS MOMENT…… Read the rest
AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGHhh, , , the stress, , , my goodness.
I went to Facebook to VENT, which is obviously NEVER a good idea.
No sooner had the words come out of my mouth than the phone calls started.
‘Are you okay?’ You sound so STRESSED….… Read the rest
My GOODNESS!!! I hope this is not too disruptive or disturbing to read, but my back is SO sore!! I think it is carrying all the stress from these past few days (or longer), and now it is all coming out in my body in PAIN.… Read the rest
How do you know though? ? ? The men who have assaulted me seemed nice enough on the surface. . . My body didn’t register a danger in some way. . . so how can you tell which men are the poisonous ones?… Read the rest