the changing weather of grief

I feel so sad for my friend who lost her husband of 40 years today. I am wondering how she must be feeling, and if it feels empty and bleak, or rich and soft with big tears. I guess she is going to feel a range of different uncomfortable emotions for the foreseeable future.… Read the rest

energising my nervous system

It is not my day.
I have struggled with my nervous system for most of it.
I am grateful for practices such as dancing, lengthening my inhale, brightly scented hand cream and cold water.
It also seems that humming and upbeat music is uplifting, albeit a little anxiety provoking.

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Virtual co-regulation or the start of something challenging

Some therapists believe that the pathway to secure attachment lies in healing of our dysregulated nervous systems. This is the realm of Polyvagal theory. It makes sense to me intellectually. However, engaging in the co-regulating practices through a computer screen this evening leaves me feeling worse than when I began the workshop.… Read the rest

opportunities to grow

Coming home is usually such a growth experience for me.

I tend to learn a lot about myself and how I have been impacted by our family dynamic.

Hopefully I can carry these lessons with me as I travel.

I could look back at what I wrote during my last visit and see if it helped me develop.… Read the rest

seeing value in less obvious ways, perhaps

The second thing that came out of the conversation with my psychologist friend today was a bit of professional development.

I told her about my woes regarding underwhelming degrees of change in my psychosocial support work. She said that during the supervision process of practising psychologists one of the first things that they teach is not to expect change.… Read the rest